Recurrent Miscarriage - The Unexplained Phenomenon

We've experienced miscarriages just about every time we've ttc'd. The first was in May of 2011, we hadn't formally started trying so when I had prolonged spotting but not an actual flow I took a pregnancy test and there was a line... I have never felt anything like it before, we were instantly filled with so much love for our little one in the making and the visions for our future as family... I now see how crazy that was but when you want something this badly your emotions take over and you can't help but dream about the possibilities in front of you - by the time we had our HCG bloods back from pathology my levels were at 29 and I miscarried that evening. I was too scared to try again so we postponed until Jan of 2012...

On a whim I decided to take test, I have irregular cycles with my PCOS so dates and cycle stages mean very little to me... and there again I saw a beautiful second line... scared and wiser this time we waited and tested at home for 2 weeks before heading into the doctor's office and having our heart broken all over again. We finally consulted with my GP but I began spotting two days later and then discovered my HCG had gone from over 1000 to 690 - I miscarried a week later at home.

At this point I was completely freaked out, I felt like my body was poisoning my babies... more than anything I blamed myself, why couldn't I've been fitter, weighed less, tried not to panic so much ... Those around us didn't seem to understand the enormity of the situation we were in, our devastation seemed to go unnoticed or perhaps that is how it felt for us.

I then spent the next year improving my health by losing 25% of my body weight and cutting out all the PCOS trigger foods such as sugar, unrefined carbs and processed fatty foods... we started seeing a fertility specialist with particular interest in PCOS and after a huge array of tests and no findings we were prescribed clomid to bring on and support ovulation. I started with a 25mg dose for 5 days and we got another blessed BFP shortly after.

It was Easter weekend and we tested on the Saturday,so there would be minimum 3 day weight before seeing our specialist. I started spotting again on Easter Monday - once again our hopes were dashed... My specialist called Tuesday afternoon to congratulate us and said my spotting was most likely normal pregnancy related spotting as my HCG levels were tripling every two days so things were looking good. At 6 weeks we saw and heard a heartbeat of 124 and our little one was measuring correctly - at 7.5 weeks all looked well again on the ultrasound though I continued spotting but was reassured that I had a less than 2% chance of miscarrying at this stage with everything considered.

On the 9th of May 2013 I went for my first Obstetric consultation and during the ultrasound at 9 weeks there was no heart beat detected and I had a D&C 24 hours later... our little one had stopped growing just prior to 8 weeks.

Pathology later reported no chromosomal abnormalities with our little boy.

So the mystery continues....